111. Merging in you, I forgot you

When this very body is the form you’ve taken,
whom should I work for?
When this very mind is the form you’ve assumed,
whom should I think of?
When this prana, the life-breath,
is the form you assume,
whom should I adore?
When awareness is merged in you,
whom should I be aware of?
Chenna-mallikarjunayya, Shiva,
With your grace, merging in you, I forgot you.
— Akka Mahadevi


I’m the worshipper and Shiva is the object of my worship --- this is how it begins. Devotion to Guru-Linga-Jangama, rght thought and right action, kaayaka or honest work , daasoha or serving the Jungama, making an offering to Shiva of everything that comes to my awareness and taking them as His prasaada, looking at this body as instrument of Shiva, feeling Shiva in every act and thought --- all these help the mind to remain calm, relaxed and well-tuned to awareness. At first awareness is always in association with things I see and the thoughts that cross my mind. Slowly perceptions of every kind point to awareness which makes it possible. Everything I see, hear, smell, taste, touch and think or feel --- all rise in awareness, linger in awareness and sink in awareness. In between two thoughts or two perceptions, I get a glimpse of bare awareness without accompaniments. Slowly effort to keep tuned in lessen and awareness is getting effortless. The final frontier that separates me and awareness is the sense of ‘I’; when this ‘I’ also sinks in awareness, there is only awareness, there is only Shiva.


When the ‘I’ is longer present to think of ‘You’, to remember you, to worship you. Chenna-Mallikarjuna, Shiva, merging in you, being you, I forget you!.

Vachana No. 105 to 113



Vachana Text 111

Tanu nimma roopaada balika naanaarige maaduve?
Mana nimma roopaada balika naanaara neneve?
Praana nimma roopaada balika
naanaaranu aaraadhisuve?
Arivu  nimmalli svayavaada balika naanaaranarive?
nimmalli neevaagi nimminda nimma marede.
-- Akka Mahaadevi

111. ನಿಮ್ಮಲ್ಲಿ ನೀವಾಗಿ ನಿಮ್ಮಿಂದ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಮರೆದೆ

ತನು ನಿಮ್ಮ ರೂಪಾದ ಬಳಿಕ ನಾನಾರಿಗೆ ಮಾಡುವೆ?
ಮನ ನಿಮ್ಮ ರೂಪಾದ ಬಳಿಕ ನಾನಾರ ನೆನೆವೆ?
ಪ್ರಾಣ ನಿಮ್ಮ ರೂಪಾದ ಬಳಿಕ ನಾನಾರನು ಆರಾಧಿಸುವೆ?
ಅರಿವು ನಿಮ್ಮಲ್ಲಿ ಸ್ವಯವಾದ ಬಳಿಕ ನಾನಾರನರಿವೆ?
ಚೆನ್ನಮಲ್ಲಿಕಾರ್ಜುನಯ್ಯ, ನಿಮ್ಮಲ್ಲಿ ನೀವಾಗಿ ನಿಮ್ಮಿಂದ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಮರೆದೆ.
-- ಅಕ್ಕ ಮಹಾದೇವಿ


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